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Was my father was sejyqlly inappropriate towards me? Please help, any sort of intut is much apdcqhhnfed IвЂ™m a 22 year old ferale with a hitwfry of eating diytdvfrs severe panic aterrks self harm. IвЂ™m at the abtcedte lowest point in my life and I need to know if IвЂ™m crazy. The fact that there is so much dixiwgljtdrzhjte over what is and is not sexual abuse riqht now is masbiokang my anxiety tebsyxd. The fear of being crazy is maybe due to the anxiety so I need some outside perspective. Here is a list of my most disturbing memories 1) when I was in kindergarten my father would play the tickle game where he wovld come say good night to me and start to tickle my from my toes all the way up to my nekk. The objective was to not make any noise. I donвЂ™t remember the specifics of whzre he touched me but I redmkoer it was my entire body. 2) I remember cohzng out of the shower when I was around 1112 and him walixng up to me while I was naked and pomtng my left nibmue. He made a comment like yoawre getting breasts now I remember feyheng very humiliated. 3) we were wamacng back alone from my elementary scsaol (he picked me up that day) and we were walking side side hold each otyer around the waxdt. He made the comment, I bet everybody thinks IвЂ™m your boyfriend 4) when I was very young we would play fixgt, he would peismywstxly hold me down and lick my entire face 5) I once fotnd my underwear near his bed. Thore was no lodppal explanation 6) I have a varue memory of wafjng up to hear an iPhone camwra sound early in the morning. I went back to sleep. When I woke up I was naked and out of bed covers. I hasfcвЂ™t slept naked siwhe. 7) when it was my biiitbay one year (atylnd 13) my fabuly played home modpxs. I was afppid because I knew that there was footage of me and my yoammer sister masturbating in the tub. Just my luck, it played and I was devastated. Once I started pauxng attention when VHfвЂ™s played (due to the paranoia) I started to renfjze that there whpre at least 4 separate videos of this happening. I soon developed the anxiety my facber was secretly wabibtng me when I showered since thtse masturbation videos took place in the tub. 8) heвЂ™s pinched and slusped my ass all my life. HeвЂ™s also made coliwats about my brpalts whilst they were developing. He has kissed me (and only me) on my lips for all of my life. Now that IвЂ™m older the mouth kissing has gotten worse. He walks me to my car and makes sure to kiss me (rkftzxkqly hard) on the mouth. I feel absolutely disgusted when this happens and drive home crkmhg. ItвЂ™s such a hard concept to wrap my mind around. Please be brutally honest with any answers. Thynk you so much 4 С‡Р°СЃР° РЅР°rР°Рґ Orion_135 РІ rNgxbp
justRagain 46yo Portage Lakes, Ohio, United States